XXL revealed its winter cover today featuring Kendrick Lamar. Lamar, unlike most marquee cover stars, opted to pen the article himself and reflected on his big year, lost loved ones, and why he’s concerned about his serious role model status.
“I know I’m chosen. I know I’m a favorite. I know in my heart there’s a whole other energy and leadership side of me that I have probably run from my whole life. How much power do I want? How much can I handle? That’s the question I keep asking myself. ’Cause when you are a voice for the youth, nothing can stop you,” he said. “The youth is what changes things. Can I lead that? Should I? I get confused because people are championing me to be that vocal point and it’s a challenge for me to be that because I have some fear of that type of power.”
He also touched on the many highly-publicized cases of police brutality this year, and how each hit close to home for him personally. “It brings back memories of when I’m 16 and the police come kicking the door in. They don’t care that I’m a little boy and they stumped me in my back two times and they dragged me out the house and have us all handcuffed. It brings back those memories,” he said.
You can check out some more excerpts from the article here. The issue hits newsstands Dec. 22.