A grieving mother from Tampa, Florida shares her transgender daughter’s suicide note to help spread awareness about the issues transgender teens face.
Patricia McKay Verbeeck‘s daughter, Hope, was one month away from turning 18 when she committed suicide on March 6. The teen left a heart-wrenching note behind her pillow. Her birth name was Eric Peter Verbeeck
According to the Mirror UK, she wrote in the note she decided to end her life because she ‘could not see her way out of the wrong body’. She mentioned in the note that she wanted to be remembered as Hope, a pansexual transgender teen.
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*TRIGGER WARNING*: The note contains disturbing content.
The note reads as:
“Dear Mommy and Papa, I am so sorry to do this to you but I have killed myself by jumping off the top floor.
“I could no longer live my life as a lie, living as a boy, instead of the girl I knew I could become.
“I’m so sorry I lied to you.
“I was losing hope in the world and could not see my way out of the wrong body so I decided it was time for my life to end. Please forgive me for any sins I committed.’
“I would like to be remembered as a transgender pansexual teenage girl named Hope.
“My sexual orientation, or sexual identity, is being pansexual…”
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The letter was signed off as Eric/Hope and ended with:
‘PS Please don’t blame yourself or anyone else for my death.’
Patricia says she and her daughter had an open and honest relationship. She says Hope was not bullied but no one would’ve known she had these thoughts:
“As far as I know, he wasn’t bullied”
“Everybody we talked with, no one would have guessed”
Please know that you are not alone if you need any help call the National Suicide Prevention Line at 1-800-273-8255.