A young New York nutritionist was found dead with a strap around her neck after posting a suicide note on her website.
Tara Condell hanged herself in her Manhattan apartment after apologizing to her mom, writing she “felt absolutely nothing during what should have been the happiest and darkest times in my life”, police sources said Thursday. She was found Wednesday after authorities were called to her apartment for a wellness check, sources said.
Her co-workers became worried after the 27-year-old failed to show up for work Wednesday and checked her site, http://www.taracondell.com only to discover the horrifying note. She left an additional note in a folder in her living room.
According to her website, Condell was a registered dietitian nutritionist specializing in general nutrition, weight management, gastrointestinal disease, and diabetes care.
The chilling note titled “I Hate The Word ‘Bye,’ But See You Later Maybe?” reads:
“I have written this note several times in my head for over a decade, and this one finally feels right. No edits, no overthinking. I have accepted hope is nothing more than delayed disappointment, and I am just plain old-fashioned tired of feeling tired.”
“I realize I am undeserving of thinking this way because I truly have a great life on paper. I’m fortunate to eat meals most only imagine. I often travel freely without restriction. I live alone in the second greatest American city (San Francisco, you’ll always have my heart). However, all these facets seem trivial to me,” Condell wrote.
“It’s the ultimate first world problem, I get it. I often felt detached while in a room full of my favorite people; I also felt absolutely nothing during what should have been the happiest and darkest times in my life. No single conversation or situation has led me to make this decision, so at what point do you metaphorically pull the trigger?”
She went on to list all of the things she would miss like “unexpected hugs”, “real true authentic street tacos”, “tracing a sleeping eyebrow”, “saying I love you” and many more. Asking for “no GoFundMes, no funeral, no tributes” and not “doing-too-much please”, she stressed it wasn’t anyone’s fault.
“I’m coming home, Dad. Make some room up on that cloud and turn the Motown up.”
According to an online bio on her workplace’s website, she received her bachelor’s degree in dietetics from San Francisco State University and master’s of science in clinical nutrition from New York University. Her “favorite things in life” were listed as “food, helping people, and science”.
If you or anyone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, please call the National Suicide Prevention Line at 1-800-273-8255. You are not alone.
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